Potential

I have realized that I need to make more time to actually write in my blog- it is certainly therapuetic.

Lately I have felt so bombarded and overwhelmed with a variety of different things.  Something I am a pro at is.... distraction! Nearly a month and a half ago I landed myself in a position to audition with a band called "Eyes On Me".  Shortly after the audition I found myself having to learn 6 songs in 3 weeks time to play a gig with them (which ended up being cancelled anyway).  Needless to say I was practicing 3 times a week with these guys, not including my own practice time.  I found myself completely consumed by this new endeavour.  Which in turn, provided me a very nice escape from everything else going on in my life.  I felt a lot of pressure to learn the music and honestly my sole purpose in life for nearly a month was learning these songs.  Now it appears the dust has settled and I can see where my feet are placed.

This evening I went and watched the movie "The Potential Inside" which was filmed here in the Lynchburg area.  I remember the last movie I saw at TRBC was a movie about Billy Graham, and I recall the impact it had on my life that Summer.  I went to this movie eagerly expecting and hoping that God would speak some new revelation to me.  The movie was good, granted I dont believe I left with a "wow" feeling.  Obviously the movie did focus on "potential", which made me think a lot about what potential really is. 

Often we hear people encouraging others telling them to reach their "maximum potential", or that "you have soo much potential".  Honestly, who really believes that?  Many of us, myself included, never dare to seek or dream of our potential.  Why?  We don't want to have to face the FEAR of failure.  It's not even failure that scares us anymore; it's the FEAR of failing that is soo deeply rooted in our hearts and minds. It is much simplier to avoid the anxiety of it all but never trying. 

I have come to realize this; If you are ignoring your potential because of the fear of failure, you have already failed.  God's purpose for us is to serve him and flourish in the potential that he has created in us.

Frankly I am tired of riding up and down on this spiritual roller coaster- it's much easier to maintain the momentum going down than it is going up.  I think being 27 now and looking back over my life I am certainly not where I want to be.  Granted, where I am does not surprise God and in many ways I know I've grown. 

Ya know, if a blue silly band can be a turtle, why can't I be more?

Adios :)