Right, I can't complain about life. However, I do ask that those that read this please pray for me. I have been having to fight off feelings of loneliness. I pray that God takes those feelings away from me; can just be a bad place because that's when if you let your guard down for a min, you are sucked in!.... sucked into whatever the world has to offer.
I have been extremely disapointed in myself as of late. I have not been very faithful in doing my devotions and writing in my prayer journal. Wow. With that said, I GREATLY see a difference in my walk, my actions, and thoughts. God's spirit and presence is so infectious that it's like air, if you hold your breath for even a minute, your mind starts shutting down, going crazy. When we get out of the word for even a day, its like denying oxygen to our souls. The cool thing is that I recongize this and see the need to improve!
So today we had band practice. WOW. God is totally moving and blessing my talents for him, I can't wait to get some music recorded for people to hear it. There is soo much passion in it that u can't deny it! After practice I went and saw a band play in Wyndhurst, it was cool. Nice to spend some time with friends and meet some new folks.
Ok, landmark time. Im done acting like Im in a relationship; im not. So, with that being said, I'm going to start doing as I please, holding myself accoutable to God of course. I miss Jessica, but I can't keep holding back, I cant keep holding on. If its meant to be, it will be. Gods got the reigns on my life, and here we go!
Gnight folks!
Saturday, June 26, 2010
Monday, June 21, 2010
OUCH!
Sunday morning when I woke up for church I noticed that my leg was sore and that my lymph node in my groin was extremely swollen. I sort of brushed it off, asked myself what on earth I did to my leg, and assumed that I had done something and hadn't paid any attention to when it had happened.
So I carried out my business for the day, went Sunday School/Church, then watched the A Team with my bro, John, step-dad, his father, and two other distant relatives. The movie was absolutely hallarious btw! It was much better than what I had thought.
I better make this quick because my hands are starting to hurt pretty bad.... I ended up going to the emergency room late Sunday night. I went up to the triage nurse and was like "hey, I don't want to be wasting anyone's time, but this has got me concerned, can I just wait til tomrorow?"...apparently she didn't think it would be wise to send me away, so I preceeded to spend the next 7 hours there, woohoo. So basically what it came down to is I have what they call "streaking" that runs about ten inches up my inner thigh along the artery, its continuing to grow in length and widen. The streaking is apparently an infection that is moving through my body- the reason why the lymph node was swollen. Official diagnoses was Cellulitis; a subdermal infection of the skin.
My friend Jen works in the ER as a Physician's Assistant so she hung out with me for about an hour after she got off work. Which was nice because I was going nuts talking to myself, mainly the dialogue was "shut that kid up!". There was a deaf lady next to me who had kids that were screaming allllll night..... obviously she didn't see a need to do anything about that. (and the kids weren't being seen, she was, so I'm not that insensitive).
They did a bunch of bloodwork, which they butchered me during the process. The phlebotimist, I think she was an imposter, but she rolled one vein, and collapsed on in my other arm. So I ended up just getting an IV from the nurse there, she was wayyy better. Bloodwork back fine; still awaiting the cultures from tick born illnesses though. They also did an ultrasound to check for any clotting; I told the lady if she saw anything kicking not to tell me. Apparently they don't have a sense of humor at 4:30am. I have a cut on my knee but the Dr didn't seem to think that it was the cause of the streaking/infection. So basically I have a knee a tender thigh that hurts quite a bit at times, they gave me some pain killers, and some antibiotics as well.
Prayers are much appreciated; this things appears to be spreading more since last night and I reallllly want this taken care of obviously.
But all in all, God is good, he has a plan, and soo very thankful that this didn't happen while I was really in the midst of helping Josh with his house. When things appear to be going wrong, take a look and see how wrong things really could have gone! That will place everything into perspective. Also, look at everything as a test, just as Job did. It all comes down to our character being tested and how we will respond to specific events; will you handle it with dignity, or will you allow your character to crumble under the pressure. For a man whose character is tested, and is found to be solid and built in truth, he will find great reward and blessings. God doesn't bless a chameleon.
Goodnight :)
So I carried out my business for the day, went Sunday School/Church, then watched the A Team with my bro, John, step-dad, his father, and two other distant relatives. The movie was absolutely hallarious btw! It was much better than what I had thought.
I better make this quick because my hands are starting to hurt pretty bad.... I ended up going to the emergency room late Sunday night. I went up to the triage nurse and was like "hey, I don't want to be wasting anyone's time, but this has got me concerned, can I just wait til tomrorow?"...apparently she didn't think it would be wise to send me away, so I preceeded to spend the next 7 hours there, woohoo. So basically what it came down to is I have what they call "streaking" that runs about ten inches up my inner thigh along the artery, its continuing to grow in length and widen. The streaking is apparently an infection that is moving through my body- the reason why the lymph node was swollen. Official diagnoses was Cellulitis; a subdermal infection of the skin.
My friend Jen works in the ER as a Physician's Assistant so she hung out with me for about an hour after she got off work. Which was nice because I was going nuts talking to myself, mainly the dialogue was "shut that kid up!". There was a deaf lady next to me who had kids that were screaming allllll night..... obviously she didn't see a need to do anything about that. (and the kids weren't being seen, she was, so I'm not that insensitive).
They did a bunch of bloodwork, which they butchered me during the process. The phlebotimist, I think she was an imposter, but she rolled one vein, and collapsed on in my other arm. So I ended up just getting an IV from the nurse there, she was wayyy better. Bloodwork back fine; still awaiting the cultures from tick born illnesses though. They also did an ultrasound to check for any clotting; I told the lady if she saw anything kicking not to tell me. Apparently they don't have a sense of humor at 4:30am. I have a cut on my knee but the Dr didn't seem to think that it was the cause of the streaking/infection. So basically I have a knee a tender thigh that hurts quite a bit at times, they gave me some pain killers, and some antibiotics as well.
Prayers are much appreciated; this things appears to be spreading more since last night and I reallllly want this taken care of obviously.
But all in all, God is good, he has a plan, and soo very thankful that this didn't happen while I was really in the midst of helping Josh with his house. When things appear to be going wrong, take a look and see how wrong things really could have gone! That will place everything into perspective. Also, look at everything as a test, just as Job did. It all comes down to our character being tested and how we will respond to specific events; will you handle it with dignity, or will you allow your character to crumble under the pressure. For a man whose character is tested, and is found to be solid and built in truth, he will find great reward and blessings. God doesn't bless a chameleon.
Goodnight :)
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
Love; Is an Honor
Things have been pretty crazy for me lately; I have been spending every moment helping my buddy Josh remodel his bathroom, which in fact is starting to come along great. As we were praying about a week ago as we were wrapping up the evening, he started to cry. It was then that I heard the heart of an honest man recognize my willingness to help, as an expression of God's love.
Many of us have a very hard time accepting love, sometimes even just as difficult of a time giving it. The important thing to remember about God's love; its not a hug. We often associate love as being physical affection; which obviously God can't wrap us up in his arms (he could if he really wanted, but I'm sure my point is made). Instead, God utilizes PEOPLE; people like you and me. He takes us as being vessels for his love for one another.
So my challenge to all is to consider yourself as an outpouring of God's love that is meant to be poured into someone else; so that they shall know God loves them. For couples; consider it an HONOR that God has placed you in a position to not just love, but to be an expression, or outstretched arm, of HIS love.
When we recognize that Love is bigger than us, than this world is bigger than us, that is when we hold ourselves accountable to a much higher standard. That standard equals JOY and PEACE.
Caution; if you aren't loving as you should, perhaps then you are portraying God incorrectly? Love comes from him, starts with him, pours through him, and returns to him. Do your best, all you can, to show someone how much God loves them, not just how much you love them, but how much God does.
Goodnight :)
Many of us have a very hard time accepting love, sometimes even just as difficult of a time giving it. The important thing to remember about God's love; its not a hug. We often associate love as being physical affection; which obviously God can't wrap us up in his arms (he could if he really wanted, but I'm sure my point is made). Instead, God utilizes PEOPLE; people like you and me. He takes us as being vessels for his love for one another.
So my challenge to all is to consider yourself as an outpouring of God's love that is meant to be poured into someone else; so that they shall know God loves them. For couples; consider it an HONOR that God has placed you in a position to not just love, but to be an expression, or outstretched arm, of HIS love.
When we recognize that Love is bigger than us, than this world is bigger than us, that is when we hold ourselves accountable to a much higher standard. That standard equals JOY and PEACE.
Caution; if you aren't loving as you should, perhaps then you are portraying God incorrectly? Love comes from him, starts with him, pours through him, and returns to him. Do your best, all you can, to show someone how much God loves them, not just how much you love them, but how much God does.
Goodnight :)
Monday, June 7, 2010
Demolition, Fun, and Staying Ahead of the Learning Curve
So this past week has certainly been a very interesting one for me. Have you ever felt like you were so in-tune with the Holy Spirit that you felt uncomfortable and weird around something that you REALLY WANTED? That's powerful, hard to really accept for myself, but powerful nonetheless.
I have learned that the Holy Spirit draws close to people to warn them, to protect them, and give them an understanding and knowledge about some things that can ONLY come from the Holy Spirit. CS Lewis said "God whispers in our pleasures, speaks in our conscience, but shouts in our pains: It's his megaphone to rouse a deaf world!"
Doesn't that make you grateful for pain? It certainly does me.
This weekend I helped by buddy/ Sunday school teacher, Josh Straub with some housework. Boy... some housework! He is getting married in 3 weeks and his fiance is back at home in Canada and he is needing to get all of this done before they get back from their honeymoon, I have a strange feeling I might be doing some stuff for him while he's gone!
So Bradi, myself, and Josh got started on the demolition on Saturday. We ripped out the vanity, cabinet, toilet, and shower, along with carpet out of two rooms. I spent all weekend sanding down the walls in the bathroom where someone had made a really awful design pattern, blah.
Yesterday was tons of fun! The water valve had broken when we turned it off before knocking out the tile, and had no clue what had happened! So Josh came by my apartment in the morning before church to shower, then I rode with him. After leaving church we pull onto 501 South and he's like "dude, I'm out of gas... " So I tell him to go coast across two lanes to pull back down Wards Road and he stops across from the Hess Station.
I see him come outside with a two litter bottle of coke chugging it, I'm thinking "Dude, why did you get a drink?", but he emptied it and filled it with gas, just enough to get us into the parking lot to get gas..... I had asked him several times if he needed gas before running out, haha... and his full title is Dr. Josh Straub... I think I should ask if it's an honorary degree haha!
So after we get the water temporarily fixed back at his house... he realizes that water is POURING into the downstairs bathroom through the ceiling, going all the way to the basement! So I run into the house, run upstairs thinking "Crap! I know I didn't hit any pipes!".... turns out the shower was on! And as you can tell by the picture... had NO PLACE to capture the water. The funny thing is.. just two feet away, our friend Steve Tozier was going out the wall with an electric sander and had no clue what was happening!
Funny, but created more work. Now I have to go cut the ceiling out the main floor bathroom and replace that. So tonight I think we are replacing the subfloor in the upstairs bathroom; it was badly dry rotted, and hopefully get his ceiling done as well, at least get they dry wall hung.
Some girls from our sunday school class were over painting, so we wrapped up the evening just relaxing grilling hamburgers after that big fiasco, man it was something else!
Well I'm headed back out, hoping that nothing else comes up! Also, I contacted a guy about a job in Bedford, awaiting a return phone call. God is in control.
Have a blessed day!
I have learned that the Holy Spirit draws close to people to warn them, to protect them, and give them an understanding and knowledge about some things that can ONLY come from the Holy Spirit. CS Lewis said "God whispers in our pleasures, speaks in our conscience, but shouts in our pains: It's his megaphone to rouse a deaf world!"
Doesn't that make you grateful for pain? It certainly does me.
This weekend I helped by buddy/ Sunday school teacher, Josh Straub with some housework. Boy... some housework! He is getting married in 3 weeks and his fiance is back at home in Canada and he is needing to get all of this done before they get back from their honeymoon, I have a strange feeling I might be doing some stuff for him while he's gone!
So Bradi, myself, and Josh got started on the demolition on Saturday. We ripped out the vanity, cabinet, toilet, and shower, along with carpet out of two rooms. I spent all weekend sanding down the walls in the bathroom where someone had made a really awful design pattern, blah.
Yesterday was tons of fun! The water valve had broken when we turned it off before knocking out the tile, and had no clue what had happened! So Josh came by my apartment in the morning before church to shower, then I rode with him. After leaving church we pull onto 501 South and he's like "dude, I'm out of gas... " So I tell him to go coast across two lanes to pull back down Wards Road and he stops across from the Hess Station.
I see him come outside with a two litter bottle of coke chugging it, I'm thinking "Dude, why did you get a drink?", but he emptied it and filled it with gas, just enough to get us into the parking lot to get gas..... I had asked him several times if he needed gas before running out, haha... and his full title is Dr. Josh Straub... I think I should ask if it's an honorary degree haha!
So after we get the water temporarily fixed back at his house... he realizes that water is POURING into the downstairs bathroom through the ceiling, going all the way to the basement! So I run into the house, run upstairs thinking "Crap! I know I didn't hit any pipes!".... turns out the shower was on! And as you can tell by the picture... had NO PLACE to capture the water. The funny thing is.. just two feet away, our friend Steve Tozier was going out the wall with an electric sander and had no clue what was happening!
Funny, but created more work. Now I have to go cut the ceiling out the main floor bathroom and replace that. So tonight I think we are replacing the subfloor in the upstairs bathroom; it was badly dry rotted, and hopefully get his ceiling done as well, at least get they dry wall hung.
Some girls from our sunday school class were over painting, so we wrapped up the evening just relaxing grilling hamburgers after that big fiasco, man it was something else!
Well I'm headed back out, hoping that nothing else comes up! Also, I contacted a guy about a job in Bedford, awaiting a return phone call. God is in control.
Have a blessed day!
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