Change- My Inability To Deal With It

So I use to be that guy that couldn't stand any kind of change whatsoever, oh wait, I'm still that guy! Not entirely though, I have realized the value of change and how necessary it is for our growth, both spiritually and emotionally- who cares about financially.

Lately I have had such a difficult time adjusting to the new shift, 12pm-9pm.  I feel so disorganized and out of routine.  I am extremely thankful to have a job right now so by no means am I actually complaining! My life was pretty chaotic there for a while- I had band practice on Mondays, nothing on Tuesdays but normally it got filled with something, Mens group on Wednesday nights, Volleyball on Thursday nights, and band practice again on Friday nights.  Thankfully I quit volleyball a few weeks anyway so that's not something I am missing out on anymore.  I just really value my time with my friends at band practice, and the time I get with the guys on our Wednesday night bible studies.  I really hope that this shift won't last too long because I need those things in my life- they are extremely important to me.  I think one of the awesome things about getting older is that you begin to see what is important to you and necessary, you start cutting out all the excess and garbage.

God has seriously been teaching me a lot about patience and really trying to reshape a lot of my thinking.  I take a look back over the years and realize how like every lesson that I have learned, it's been the hard way! Why is that?  I've got wisdom.  I think I am fairly intelligent with some good insight.  Oh wait, I always let my heart lead me.  26 yrs into life I am realizing the need for checks and balances, sometimes I just wish my brain would check my heart against the glass like an angry Canadian hockey player on steroids... I guess if it did that I probably wouldn't be breathing, but you get the stupidity and stubbornness on my part. I take a look though and can clearly see how God has been molding me for bigger and greater things during the course of all the "junk" that I have had to go through- I just have to remind myself that it's all to bring him glory in the end.

Time to meet the guys for lunch, some Christmas shopping, and band practice- I am sooo in need of rocking out with the guys tonight; I feel I've got a lot of energy and "stuff" to just dump into music tonight!